Post by lumina on Aug 11, 2017 9:11:20 GMT
Ava
yes where it gets creepy is if you KNOW that something is rotten and everyone else pretends it is all bunnies and cheesecake and you are the crazy one.
I actually don`t feel like delving into this too much, because honestly it feels like pulling me down and also feels like far far away.
Interesting what you said about the Sag. I wasn`t really attracted to P at first either. Or maybe I was and just didn`t know, because it felt so different from what I`ve known before?
I mean there must have been something drawing me back into his proximity, but honestly speaking for the first few years I was more or less just sitting there trying to figure out WHY I was being there again and WHAT about him made me go there, and IF I was even attracted to him, and if not, why was I being there?
I was a bit stumped, of course I did not really know him back then (not that I know him that well now, but I guess a lot better than in those times), and while I`ve always calmed myself with the idea that probably I was just responding to his stage persona, just as many girls fall for a movie-character, an invented figure instead of the real person, it turned out that actually meeting him in person made things so much worse, and the more I`ve been meeting up with him, the more I seemed to start to like him. Isn`t it a tragedy?
I was meeting him in the first place to PROVE to myself that I was ONLY interested in him as an artist or his stage persona but that I did not care about the real person (like usually), and then I met him and it was like meeting someone you`ve known a long time ago, like a family member even, you had spent good times with but then time pulled you apart and you kind of "forgot" each other, but upon re-meeting it all rushed back. That was remotely the feeling I got when I first met him, just that I would use the term "family" loosely in this instance. He did not quite feel like a brother or cousin. lol
It is ironic really. I´ve only met him to prove to myself that I do NOT like him at all as a person, just to realize that he is so much more likeable as a real person. Damn it, that backfired!!!
yes where it gets creepy is if you KNOW that something is rotten and everyone else pretends it is all bunnies and cheesecake and you are the crazy one.
I actually don`t feel like delving into this too much, because honestly it feels like pulling me down and also feels like far far away.
Interesting what you said about the Sag. I wasn`t really attracted to P at first either. Or maybe I was and just didn`t know, because it felt so different from what I`ve known before?
I mean there must have been something drawing me back into his proximity, but honestly speaking for the first few years I was more or less just sitting there trying to figure out WHY I was being there again and WHAT about him made me go there, and IF I was even attracted to him, and if not, why was I being there?
I was a bit stumped, of course I did not really know him back then (not that I know him that well now, but I guess a lot better than in those times), and while I`ve always calmed myself with the idea that probably I was just responding to his stage persona, just as many girls fall for a movie-character, an invented figure instead of the real person, it turned out that actually meeting him in person made things so much worse, and the more I`ve been meeting up with him, the more I seemed to start to like him. Isn`t it a tragedy?
I was meeting him in the first place to PROVE to myself that I was ONLY interested in him as an artist or his stage persona but that I did not care about the real person (like usually), and then I met him and it was like meeting someone you`ve known a long time ago, like a family member even, you had spent good times with but then time pulled you apart and you kind of "forgot" each other, but upon re-meeting it all rushed back. That was remotely the feeling I got when I first met him, just that I would use the term "family" loosely in this instance. He did not quite feel like a brother or cousin. lol
It is ironic really. I´ve only met him to prove to myself that I do NOT like him at all as a person, just to realize that he is so much more likeable as a real person. Damn it, that backfired!!!