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Post by Ava on Aug 14, 2017 14:37:50 GMT
Open discussion!
What's really complicated and confounding about your chart...what are its special challenges, how do you navigate these?
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This morning I was thinking about how I seem biologically rigged to over-react to stress. What is mildly stressful to others could be almost debilitating to me.
I seem to have two modes: very laid back and very stressed.
Very laid back is the 8H Pisces moon t-squaring Mars and Neptune. Very stressed is the 6H Cap sun t-squaring Jupiter and Pluto.
Both luminaries are the apex planets. So, while they are sextile, they seem to work at cross-purposes, because of how they're aspected.
The stressed nature of my sun is especially apparent in circumstances pertaining to the 6th house: worries about dealing with doctors, worries about my kids' dietary habits and preferences, stress about keeping the house in order. These are especially pivotal concerns when my Pisces moon has been in charge too long with its hippie attitude towards everything, like "All that matters is that everyone is happy, God will provide, etcetera." Wherever circumstance show that that is not the case, the Cap sun wants to make up for lost time by doing everything perfectly, obsessively, with all its heart, above and beyond the call of duty. It functions best in emergency mode, thanks to the Jupiter/Pluto squares. But it's really taxing and imbalanced sometimes.
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Post by Violets on Aug 14, 2017 20:27:54 GMT
I want to talk about my (technically) Grand Cross with my luminaries and Nodes, but for right now I'm sort of "Can't brain today, I've got the dumb." I think Mars is opposing my Mercury, and Mercury squaring my Neptune at the moment. Pardon me for the day.
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Post by anela on Aug 14, 2017 23:12:25 GMT
I have the same two modes. Sorry if it seems like I keep saying that, but I really do. I have my moments when I'm calm-ish whilst dealing with something, I think it's survival instincts kicking in (like when I put out a fire, managed to catch it before it spread, but it was all over the top of a bed). Scared the crap out of me, but I got shaky afterwards, and then just slumped on the couch all night.
I'm too tired to think more about it right now. I still haven't slept properly. I tried sleeping on the floor with the dogs, rather than the couch. They loved me being down there with them, but I didn't sleep well at all.
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Post by Violets on Aug 15, 2017 15:01:45 GMT
It is hard to have both my luminaries squaring my Nodes.
I don't often navigate it so well, honestly. It's like they all get in each other's way, and I just sort of fumble around and hope for the best.
I struggle with my love for what I do for a living, and a NEED for financial independence, and a tendency to be a workaholic (Virgo Moon in 2nd), and my NN's path to be more involved with my children and home/family life (Sag NN on the cusp of 4th/5th).
Likewise, my Pisces Sun in 8th absolutely requires time for my spiritual growth, which also requires solitude. It's very difficult to balance that with my family life.
My Sun/Moon opposition seem to be okay with each other, they blend more easily, I think. But when my Nodes get thrown in there they all just sort of conflict with the needs of the others.
Likewise with my SN in Gemini on the cusp of 10th/11th, my inclination is to be involved a lot in social causes that coincide with what I do for a living.
On the occasion when I worked full time during the day and my husband stayed home, I really missed being at home with my kids. My work was rewarding, but I definitely felt a sense of something lacking with being gone all day.
As I'm not working now, my Moon feels frustrated, which also leads to an imbalance. I require a lot of solitude to meditate and do what I need to do for myself spiritually, and so it's a real balancing act to try to have that with so much commotion throughout the day.
Mostly I just try to balance these needs, attempting to give each one a turn, so to speak. If I'm not employed, it's good for me to get outside and work in solitude.
I haven't mastered how to combine all of these needs into one nice package, unfortunately. They just have to take turns.
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Post by FruityLlama on Aug 15, 2017 16:06:30 GMT
I am exactly the same and its because my two main energies are Taurus and Uranus, basically. My dominant planet and sign and I really feel it...
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Post by midnight on Aug 15, 2017 20:36:22 GMT
My biggest issue is lack of confidence. I'm a Leo Sun, but I really lack that famous presense. Actually I hate too much attention, and have panic attacks when I'm around people. I get so tired when I'm around people I feel easily drained and influenced by moods/emotions of others. Sun and Venus in 12H.
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Post by Ava on Aug 16, 2017 16:42:55 GMT
Thank you all for your insights!
Be back with an intact mind soon, I hope. Then I can reply.
My son has been on a trip to Costa Rica....
* Edited out travel problems, it's resolved now. But I was saying, this was a classic case where I get really uptight and panicky, over issues that are probably just minor to others. It's hard for me to keep perspective sometimes.
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Post by Violets on Aug 16, 2017 16:50:52 GMT
Oh God, Ava. Anyone would be upset right now in your shoes. ❤ My heart goes out to you in earnest, and praying for everything to be fine. ❤❤❤❤❤❤
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Post by Ava on Aug 16, 2017 16:55:04 GMT
Thank you thank you Violets! ❤❤❤❤ Just cannot wait to get my son home again! Who knows, maybe everything will be fine. It probably will be. Just sooooo stressful. I'll update yet again when he's back, I didn't mean to derail this, just wanted to vent a bit, and it matches what I said in the OP too perfectly. Hope everyone else is having a nice day! ❤
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Post by whisperix on Aug 16, 2017 20:48:41 GMT
I wish you and your family luck Ava!
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Post by Deleted on Aug 16, 2017 21:27:27 GMT
I'm glad he's coming home safe!! I remember a couple of weeks back you posted that you were worried about this trip because of its proximity to the eclipse - how's that for mother's intuition??
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Post by Ava on Aug 16, 2017 22:41:02 GMT
It's all good!! Whew I'm celebrating by posting a scene from Costa Rica, he's in the white shirt: Looks fun, as Leo season ought to be. I'll delete that later. athena , yes I was worried before he even left! Seemed inevitable there would be some glitches.
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Post by Ava on Aug 16, 2017 22:42:28 GMT
I wish you and your family luck Ava ! Thank you! It worked!
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Post by Violets on Aug 17, 2017 4:38:33 GMT
Oh thank goodness. Ava🎉💖💕🎉🌷❤💖💕🎉
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